Well I am packing my things now and getting ready to leave St Nicolau.
I am sure I will be back.
I went and sang in the little chapel this evening. Just me with Bonnie lying outside, her head resting on the doorstep. And somewhere the chameleon who lives inside the porch.
Tomorrow it will be one week since Blue died. I can’t believe it. I think in Buddhist traditions the spirit stays around for 7 days after leaving the body and I am so glad to have been here during this time. It will be hard to leave anyway but I am telling myself that Blue’s spirit will be back home in Cornwall by now. Waiting for us when we get there in July.
I am going to bring one of my sculptures to sit in the garden here – the Blue Dog. Will be good to have something solid here as a reminder.
The last few days have been quiet, staying close to home, writing and reading and singing and gardening. It is incredibly soothing to get my hands into the soil and pull up weeds.
And it is one way to say thank you to Helen and Francis for all they have done for us.
I still feel my old girl around here and it’s been two years. I didn’t want to move for a while, thinking that she was just here but now I feel her everywhere. The funny thing about spirit is that it is not bound by time and space as we experience it in the body (or so they say…). Going “home” in July? It sounds like a trip to soothe the soul. Sometimes we are meant to wander though. I assume Bonnie will be with you every step of the way. A week? How can that be?
I’m sure you will be leaving with mixed feelings but what a wonderful place you chose to be at such a sorrowful time, with such good people.
Hope your return will herald the beginning of a new phase in your life. Blue will be with you wherever you are xx